27/04/06

My memory is rubbish. Honestly, there doesn't seem to be any logic at all, it's perfectly capable of remembering the most pointless stuff in detail, while editing life-changing events practically out of existance. But it's the way it works that gets me the most. Specifically when I'm trying to remember how to do something I haven't done for a while - like today. It was getting something sorted out on the computer this time, but it's happened with other stuff as well. So, I know I've got to go through a certain process but I can't remember quite how it goes, so I have to play the stupid bloody guessing game. I'm sitting there clicking at things, waiting until it feels right, because my brain won't tell me straight out whether I'm headed in the right direction or not. Instead it'll say things like 'Hmmm, that page is kind of the right colour' or 'I think you had to press a key on the left and then on the right and then hold down two at once. But I don't know which two' or even 'that heading looks the right shape' - it won't even tell me the words the heading's supposed to have, just where it's got captial letters sticking out in the right places. No wonder I can't spell. It irritates me because I can't have completely forgotten, or I wouldn't know when I was right - but I can't completely remember either.

Keeping on the 'brain's are weird' theme, don't you think the strangest stuff when you're going to sleep? Last night I spent rather longer than is justifiable trying to spot parallels between 'Cold Comfort Farm' and 'Fruit's Basket'. What the hell was that about...? (And did Akito see Something Nasty in the woodshed?)